it's about now.

i live in the now. i don't like looking back on the past. there is no point. moving forward is better than dwelling.
life is scary and hard. but most of us make it through.
the saying i used to live by, i find a lie.
"in life, no one gets out alive"
yes in all literal senses it's true, we all die.
but the ones who survive are the ones who gave it their all and lived their life to the fullest.
i plan to be someone who makes it. i have my lowest of the low points in life, but then i have those times where nothing could get me down.
suicide has been in my family, i hate it.
i write this blog because i realized that no one can save you in the end. it's only up to you. i want to live everyday like it's my last. telling everyone that i love, how much i love them, and how much they mean to me.
i try to be an affectionate person. i try to care. i try to be there. i try to love.
the fading scars upon my wrists remind me of my old ways. cutting. suicidal thoughts. depression. lots of it. i have changed.
yes, i still have depression, it doesn't just fade away into nothing, but i'm conscious of it. i'm conscious of how i deal with it.
save yourself.
save the ones you love.
save someone.
and if you think you don't know how to do that, you are mistaken.
everyone saves someone.
just by being yourself.
telling someone the truth.
telling them you love them.
telling them you care.
anything.
even just a hug, or a handshake, or a kiss.
it might mean everything to someone.
maybe just being there while someone cries on your shoulder.
or being there, sitting around, doing nothing, but talking about stupid stuff.
that could be the key to life.
the key to life is love.
the meaning of life is love. change. hope.
be there.
save.
♥